Bouncer Boy

Let me just take the opportunity right now to apologize for my annoying, I'm talking to my baby voice. This video was so cute I had to post it though!


Busy day

Austine doesn't have to work until Friday, so I'm enjoying the time with him. My blues seems to stem from being alone (duh), and I wasn't used to that being that Austine's job painting houses had him home by two every afternoon.

Anyhow, today we got me a sports bra at Creative Woman....which is like the best place for lingerie in the area ever. I finally got my AT&T rewards card (from like 4 months ago, bastards), so I used that. I'm really excited to start working out again! I've been doing pretty well weight loss wise, so I'm hoping this will jumpstart it even more.

Then we were going to go to Target, but on the way there we decided Austine needed a haircut more, so we went to his uncle's salon. Austine got his hair cut, and then we went to the pediatricians. I really don't like our pediatricians office. The receptionist calls me mom (I have a name. Even Miss or Ma'm would be better), and runs the place like a army outpost. Every time we go there is a new nurse. Hopefully Austine will get this job, and I'll be able to choose my own pediatrician that I like.

Ethan is now 25 and 1/4 inches tall, 13.12 oz and his head is 42cm around. I can't believe how much he is growing. Today he just started blowing raspberries and wouldn't stop. He now reaches and grabs for objects, and can even sit unsupported for a few seconds. His 3-6 pajamas almost don't fit, he's wearing 6-9 in some! I love watching him grow, but sometimes I wish he would just stay the way he is so I can remember it forever.

Tomorrow we are going grocery shopping, getting gas, then Target to return a shirt with ink on it (thanks jerk who probably returned it), and then we're depositing the rest of the money into our checking account which is so horribly overdrafted I don't even want to know how much we owe them. We are paying it off by this Friday, it has been really hard to catch up with Austine not getting paid for two weeks...everyone is calling us wanting money. Fortunately, we are setting up direct deposit and once it's in the green, we are going to pay everyone and the harassment will stop.


Bald Spots

So I knew that after pregnancy, you lost a lot of hair. While pregnant, the hormones cause your hair follicles to hold on to hair that would normally be shed. This results in a glorious head of hair....until those hormones go away. This past month I have been losing clumps and clumps of hair. There is hair coating our floors, our rugs, our couch, and yes, our kid. It doesn't quite help that Ethan loves to use my hair as a convenient handle when in my arms.

So I knew this would happen. I didn't expect there to be two huge bald spots on the front of my head!

Can you see it?

There's another one on the other side too! WTH?! I hope it grows back, I hope it grows back.

I really don't see any high ponytails in my future :(



I don't know what has been wrong with me lately. It might be the fact that I have no car when Austine is gone, so I really don't ever get out of the house when he is at work, and he is at work most of the time. It might also be the fact that Ethan isn't sleeping well anymore, and I'm up 5 times a night again. It could also be the fact that when Austine comes home, I want a break but often have to beg and plead him to get up and get the baby ect. It could also be the fact that I want to work out, but I don't have a sports bra that fits anymore. Anyone who knows me knows that I can't just go to Wal-Mart and buy a new sports bra.

Maybe I'm just making excuses for myself but I feel like I'm being stifled. I don't see any of my friends anymore (to be honest, who wants to venture into SG anyhow), every day is the same. Do some laundry, put the baby to sleep. Do the dishes, clean the bathroom. It's a very stark contrast to how my life used to be.

I'm not complaining. I love Ethan, more than I even thought possible! However, sometimes I just feel less than human. I know I need to fix this somehow but I don't know what to do. We have no money until Austine's checks start coming in, and I have no car. There really aren't many more options than to sit at home and watch re-runs of Teen Mom. I really cannot wait till we are current with everything, my registration is paid again, we fix up the bug, and I can get out!

I think it really comes down to the fact that I need to meet some moms in my area. Like, stay at home, taking care of the kids, same age as Ethan moms. I'm thinking that once I have some form of transportation, I'll sign E up for some gymboree classes. Maybe we'll go to the library for story time, or go to the park for lunch. I just know I need to do something other than cleaning, sleeping, and eating.


Weekend Update

We had quite the busy (read, sick) weekend. Saturday we really just hung around the house, went grocery shopping (thanks to my parents loaning us some cash, it's been hard to make ends meet when we were broke before he started the job then we had to wait 2 weeks for the first paycheck!), and really just lazed about. Austine caught my cold about midweek and was really feeling like crud.

We didn't go to church Sunday, and went over to Austine's parents for the Superbowl. We're really not big football fans, the only thing I really like about it are the commercials and half-time. Except that halftime was awful (Black Eyed Peas). I ended up falling asleep while Ethan was asleep, and so did Austine. It really was a slow day.

I ended up eating something that hated me, and puked at about 12:30AM. I finally fell asleep, then at 2:30AM Austine gets out of bed, and is hitting himself (more like patting) and mumbling. He walks into the hallway, and was walking into walls. I asked him what he was doing and he just turned around and went to bed! Of course, this woke Ethan up, so I had to feed him before he would go back to sleep. I finally fell asleep at 3:00, and then Ethan woke up for the day at 6:30. BAH!

But; this video makes up for it:


Yay, no more rocking!

I am so excited that Ethan is starting to be able to go to sleep by himself in his crib. I hated hated hated rocking him (not because I didn't like holding him, but because our rocker is very very uncomfortable and I have a bad back). So far 2 of his naps have been in the crib by himself without me rocking him, I'm really hoping bedtime won't be a struggle like it normally is. Normally, I wrap him up, put his pacifier in and rock him for hours until he falls asleep. Mostly, he's fighting against me in the rocker too so that makes it twice as hard. If I can get him to calm down enough to fall asleep in the crib, I might just cry.


The New Job

Sounds absolutely amazing. Austy started officially yesterday. He has three months probation until they decide to hire him full time (fingers are crossed). Meanwhile, I get to hear how awesome this job is. First off, I guess they have a gym and a nutritionist there for all the employees. How cool is that? This company almost sounds like one of those awesome places that totally takes care of their employees. Austine doesn't think he'll use the gym because he still has a membership to 24 hour fitness that he uses. They also have causal Tuesdays the first 3 Tuesdays of the month, where he can wear nice jeans and a polo.

Today, he got lunch for free, Taco Tuesday! I wish I could work there! I can't help but wonder what the benefits will be like if/when he gets hired on officially. We are going to keep saying our prayers...